from beyond and back

so its been really busy. moving my house and office in the same week is not a recommendation i would make to even my worst enemy. i also just found out that i failed a class due to lack of participation (see: not turning in assignments) and now i have defaulted my student loan. now i am forced to make an appeal and hope that the government will fund me for my last semester ever. are the gods on my side? not likely.

whats happened recently? i dont even know. lets try to recap. moved house. moved office. failed a course. behind on current semester. sent child to sleep away camp. disappointed with current love relationship. having lots of fun with my new friend and our new yatzee game. i got bangs. planned a trip for the last week of august to travel the island: tofino, qualicum, sooke, and victoria. wondering how said trip will get paid for. feeling like i am really behind at work and how it will possibly correct itself. very sad that the summer is quickly coming to a close and i havent done anything fun. disappointed a few people. got disappointed by a few as well.

on saturday after a fight with the beau, i went to a barbeque/photo shoot in white rock. i arrived late and left early. caught up with some old friends and decidedly hate sing-a-longs especially when there is no fire. it was a good time though, while be it short and the bbq portion was over and my chicken was still frozen. i talked to another parent and its nice to know that all kids are trying and parenting makes no sense. i feel less alone and less of an awful parent.

i spent all of monday crying because i sent my child to camp. i plan on fixing up her room so fabulously. she also wants a fish. i will surprise her with a fish for her room. she really likes welcome home parties too. i think i will have one for her. make a sign. hang some streamers. invite some people over to jump out from behind a couch. make some sandwiches with no crusts on cuz what kid likes crust? take some pictures. it will be grand.

today i am back to work after two weeks off due to the move. i almost forgot i even had a job. i was enjoying just cashing pay cheques and returning emails. i started to think that was my job but today i remembered about the following: gaming application, bingo application, planning the AGM, hiring a staff person for september, unpacking the office, producing the September newsletter, creating the annual report, my july staff report, the new looming tasks that were created for me at a meeting i did not attend, meeting with the corporate fundraiser, meeting with the private fundraiser, and oh um all the regular stuff my job entails. oh dear oh dear. but i have to do it. i like this job. it pays well, its 2 blocks from my house, and i have all the flexibility in the world. must make an effort. must.

also, i am trying to plan a murder mystery dinner and i really thought people would like to do this. so far its just four of us and we need eight. what is wrong with people? what?

holy, does anyone care about this at all? no.