That's my story and i'm sticking to it.

i recently noticed after reading other peoples blogs, after having conversations with new, level headed friend(s), and really after just thinking about it lots and lots ... my life, while it be busy, is extremely boring.

my problems are boring. my life is boring. I AM BORING. i feel like a need a moment, a turning point, like in that movie Living Out Loud. Something needs to happen here. I don't think I can be funny, sacrastic, charming and lovely anymore...not on paper (or blog) or in real life.

I have made some new friends, thats nice. Okay, one friend. We laugh and laugh. Me and Vanessa see each other every day. Not like lesbians but she lives across the courtyard from me. Both of us are in unsatisfactory relationships and it has taken the pressure off the relationship. That part of life is fun. She makes me laugh, not the polite kind but the my face and stomach hurt kind. And its great how she can laugh at herself. I dont do that. I get defensive..."I DID NOT MAKE A MISTAKE...YOU MISUNDERSTOOD ME OR I MISUNDERSTOOD THE QUESTION." God could I lighten up?

Tomorrow I am going to Whistler for my anniversary...should you celebrate a relationship that really isn't going anywhere? i have a lot of thinking to do. A LOT.

heres something from my baby kaida:

me: it's bedtime kaida
kaida: say you're just joking

heres another:

kaida: i don't really need it daddy but i really want it and i need it.

did i tell you they are moving? they are taking away my baby. i truly feel sick about it everyday. its like they are taking my own child away. its just not fair.