be thirty and be in sin city

so yeah, my boyfriend (yes we are back together and moving in for feb 1st but thats another story) booked us a trip to Vegas for my big 30 birthday. we are going from november 30 - december 4. even though we have already been to vegas this year i am still really excited cuz i really wanted to do something exciting for my birthday. and also last time i got really sick in vegas from the food so we didnt get to do much. so we are staying at a really cool, fancy, expensive hotel called the Luxor. Its a huge pyramid.

We already have lots of plans:

• On my actual birthday (dec 2) we are going to go on a gondola ride at the Venetian hotel
• For lunch on my birthday we will go to the Palms buffet (the palms is where they have that show Inked at the hart and huntington tattoo shop)
• We are going to see the Fremont light and sounds show
• Darin is going to go on the ride at the Stratosphere (i hope he doesnt die)
• For my birthday night we are going to the Tournament of Kings. I think i may have gotten talked into this but since he's paying for everything i guess i can give a little.

And thats all we have planned so far. do you have any ideas for us?

also i have 8 weeks to get thin and hot. good luck to me.

its not good until i say so

And boy, do i ever. the new chantal kreviazuk album. songs number 1 & 2 mostly. damn its good. me and my kid knew all the words to the first two songs in about an hour. why is it so good? why! all i know is that its going to be so great when i figure out my secret, hidden amazing talent.

but what i really wonder is why things arent good unless i say so. my friend told me it was good but shrugged my shoulders at her. turned my nose up even. "i dont like her music" i believe were my words. then, i was at HMV and they were playing number one over the speakers and i had to buy it. and now i want everyone to have it.

don't worry, its good, you have my word.

also, you know how music makes you think about certain events, places, times, people in your life? dont you ever wonder particularily what songs remind people of you? i do. so if there is a song you listen to and think of me, holla at me.

americas next top skinny, ugly, catty, models

as usual, tyra picked the "unusual" looking crowd of supposed "up and coming" top models. the twins were not hot and really, why do we need two? they are the same? i am confused. and not impressed. as usual there is a bitchy black girl, man lets try to work against stereotypes not work with them. there is the girl who looks like that kim lesbian girl from a couple seasons ago. my fave is CariDee but that is only because i am picking the best of the worst. not the best of the cream of the crop. and man, tyras hair peice is beyond disgusting.

and the whole modeling nude on the first photo shoot? come on. so are you telling me that when tyra was 15 and went to paris that her mama let her shoot nude? yeah, i really dont think so. forcing people to go against their morals is just disgusting. i think tyra should be jailed for coersion. too bad i dont know how to spell it.

and i really dont understand why they give 11 beds to 13 people. basically she is just asking for them to get in a fight. good tv people. oh my, and that girl who said she was sorry but it simply wasnt possible to take a shower less than one hour. i would have just slit her through. ironically, she is also the same girl that stole someones bed. man, girls are mean. dont they know they are on tv? dont they know that people are going to be watching this? judging them?

anyhow, i decided that i would like to be on the show. that or the biggest loser but it will be a new show where its people that are trying to lose like 10-25 lbs. lets face it. thats the real tough weight loss.

girl, you betta work. snap.

thar she blows

well, like amanda I am also sick. sick and tired of working yo. no but seriously, i cannot breath and when i talk it comes out as a mixture of phlem and coughing. i went to work on monday till 12 and then yesterday until 2:30 and today i am venturing until 4. i have everything i need in my bedroom: vicks vapo rub, robitusson, hot water bottle, bed, water, kleenex box, digitial tv, telephone, darkness, blankies. work has none of this, except the water. i dont wanna go. :(

i know you wont be surprised when i say that me and the fella have hit a bump in the road. i cant even say what it is or metro will have me airlifted to another country and out of the situation. which may not be that bad. anyhow, currently, we are broken up. there was a lot of outrage, crying, and confusion...on my part. so now i am trying to figure things out. and no one is helpful. in an attempt to try to make peace, dear darin has bought me tickets to mariah on saturday. yah me. but if he thinks that changes anything he is seriously the stupidest person on the planet. oh woes me. i know life is supposed to be trying but COME ON ALREADY!

i just feel really, really lost right now. i think i am heading to full on depression mode which is really an unpleasant place to visit. it means after work i just go straight to my room and lay in my bed watching tv all night. it means i order in all meals. it means i dont do any cleaning of the house. it means i cry alot and feel sorry for myself. i go through the blame myself game. why me? WHY ME? i hope this is only a short trip.

Dwight from the Office has a blog and man, he is fu-nny. and OMG, 2 hour season premiere of Americas Next Top Model tonight. i have date with vanessas couch. i hope she makes dinner!

oh dear, the elderly

I just cant stand the elderly. hmmm that came out wrong. what i mean is i cant stand to see them so sad and frail and lonely. when i see one dragging her walker around i just want to get out of the car and go for a walk with her. if there is an old person sitting alone having a meal i want to sit with them and find out about their lives. but guess what, we dont do that do we? oh yes, our lives are so busy. our time so precious. i havent seen my own grandfather since may and that was at my gramma's funeral. it just makes me so sad to think about all of these old timers, many alone, just wasting away in their apartments. its just awful. truly. they have stories to tell, they would love to play a game of cards with someone, share a meal. but they dont have anyone. i cant stand it, really. what can be done. i just dont know.

lack of important things to say

i haven't logged on to blogger lately because my life is just plainly a disaster. and i am sure my blog is already boring enough that i dont need to complain any more than i already do. but yet, here i am.

some recent annoyances:

1. interviewed more than 10 people to work at my office. decided on one girl that is just soooo great. and now she has decided that she needs full time work and i have to start all over. i am really pissed. mostly because that means i have to continue doing my own work.

2. the more money i make, the more broke i am. mo money, mo problems.

3. everytime i get into a fight with my bf i think we are breaking up. this leads me to believe i am not mature or stable enough to be in a relationship. maybe the next fight we really will break up.

4. i continue to take on more projects even though i have absolutely no time in my life.

5. i am the only person at my house that cleans & cooks and i think i am due for a "mom on strike" episode.

i wont bore you with the rest. basically if i havent posted in a while, thank your lucky stars cuz it means i am off my rocker.