it's beginning to look a lot like christmas

i cant wait for christmas. i cant wait for holidays to start. i am off at 1pm today until january 2nd. oh happy days. i am ready to rip presents open. ready to eat turkey. ready to see family. i must be really over the edge.

this is going to be a weird christmas. first christmas without the family dog. she used to lay her 75 pound frame under the dinner table awaiting any scraps. oh man i miss my katie. i feel so bad for my dad. its only been 8 months since shes been gone. no gramma. first christmas without my gramma in my whole life, 30 years. no grandpa. hes still ailing in hospital. it will feel kinda weird opening presents and enjoying the day while he sits in a hospital bed all alone.

in other news, my child is turning into a crazy person and like pushing people around at school. for those that know her, surprised you are not, but thank you for the fake shocked look.

oh man, its dark outside. i dont like the mornings. happy belated birthday amanda.

last but not least, my brother and his wife are going through a nasty, nasty divorce. i am thinking that they should give me custody of their child while they fling the mud. i told her to pack up her stuff and she said she would if i painted the spare room pink. oh i love three year olds.

hump day....yes!

its almost wednesday, how exciting. this past weekend i went to two christmas parties, one birthday, christmas shopping, and to a movie.

christmas party #1: boyfriends work party. many many 50+ people dancing to ACDC. food was good. i looked great but no pictures were taken.

christmas party #2: very fun. lots of fun. lots of booze. christmas exchange. i got a dancing, farting santa and boyfriend got a gift card to Old Spaghetti Factory and 10 loonies. just before the party i fell down my stairs (slipping on wet newspapers not out of booziness) and really really hurt my knee, shin, and foot. no holiday dresses or skirts for me this season.

birthday: very boring. all boys except me and one other really drunk girl. i text messaged a lot. drank one beer. bowed out early.

christmas shopping: went shopping with my daddy at 8am on Saturday morning. we did queensborough landing. it was cool. i helped him finish three people and i got two gifts that i needed. i am down to about 4 presents, all gift cards that i just need to go pick up.

movie: we went to see casino royale. very long. 2.5 hours. first hour very exciting. second hour mysterious. last .5 hour it all comes together. i liked daniel craig as bond. the movie was pretty good.

well, i went

i went to vegas. and i won! yippee. i won $1200 total and brought back $400 after all the christmas and personal shopping that i did. good times. darin did rides. i drank many a free corona. we ate four free buffet meals. we saw a show. all is well in las vegas.

grandpa still sick. move to another hospital for specialized care. is having dilussions.

grandpa: "i keep seeing my name written on the floor. Who is putting it there? is someone trying to send me a message? if so who? and what are they trying to say?"

grandpa: "the provincial government is playing movies on the walls and i don't want to watch them"

grandpa: "there is a cat under the bed and i am going to get in a lot of trouble if the nurses find out."

i mean hey, at least he is talking? i dont know. its not good. my dad is meeting with the social worker and doctors tonight.

im sleepy. i think i need a nap. or a beer.