enough is enough
its truly getting to the point where i lose it completely. i have way too much going on and i am so very tired. some summer this is. i am too busy and tired to even to anything and when i do i feel guilty about the more important things i could be doing.
like today, my daughter and her friend have convinced us to take them to playland. this is while i have a freelance proofreading gig due tomorrow, many many assignment long overdue, much boxes to be packed, a house to be cleaned, a bed to be lazed around in. whats a girl to do? but i feel bad if i dont take my child out and entertain her. but why couldnt we have just gone to the local spray park for an hour and i would still have some sort of day left? why cant i say no? every day i realize more and more that seriously, something is wrong with me.
i stayed away from the blogging since my whistler trip b/c friends, you don't even want to know how that went. but in the end, a discussion was had btwn myself and my fella about where is this relationship going? what do you want out of it? what is the future of this relationship? typical of a guy "can't we just enjoy the now of the relationship?" god, men are so clueless. so after some discussion, we agreed that he shall be less of a selfish jerk and i will go on being absolutely wonderful! and that we will move intogether on july 1, 2007 which will be our two year anniversary. so thats something to work towards. a goal and milestone for our relationship. i was going for dec 1, wishful thinking on my part. but all in all, i think one year is good. i am in school till december then i'll have 6 months to unwind and relax. get used to my life without assignments hanging over my head all the time. try to loose some committments, then the summer will come and he will move in and it will be great...i hope. maybe i will hate him. only time will tell.
in other news, only 3 weeks until my brother takes my niece 1 ferry ride and 5 hours away. my heart is breaking. i cant believe how selfish they are. it makes my eyes water up just thinking about it.
look at my pretty little kaida. shes priceless.
i better sign off before i cry all over my keyboard. over and out...to playland, cry.
like today, my daughter and her friend have convinced us to take them to playland. this is while i have a freelance proofreading gig due tomorrow, many many assignment long overdue, much boxes to be packed, a house to be cleaned, a bed to be lazed around in. whats a girl to do? but i feel bad if i dont take my child out and entertain her. but why couldnt we have just gone to the local spray park for an hour and i would still have some sort of day left? why cant i say no? every day i realize more and more that seriously, something is wrong with me.
i stayed away from the blogging since my whistler trip b/c friends, you don't even want to know how that went. but in the end, a discussion was had btwn myself and my fella about where is this relationship going? what do you want out of it? what is the future of this relationship? typical of a guy "can't we just enjoy the now of the relationship?" god, men are so clueless. so after some discussion, we agreed that he shall be less of a selfish jerk and i will go on being absolutely wonderful! and that we will move intogether on july 1, 2007 which will be our two year anniversary. so thats something to work towards. a goal and milestone for our relationship. i was going for dec 1, wishful thinking on my part. but all in all, i think one year is good. i am in school till december then i'll have 6 months to unwind and relax. get used to my life without assignments hanging over my head all the time. try to loose some committments, then the summer will come and he will move in and it will be great...i hope. maybe i will hate him. only time will tell.
in other news, only 3 weeks until my brother takes my niece 1 ferry ride and 5 hours away. my heart is breaking. i cant believe how selfish they are. it makes my eyes water up just thinking about it.
look at my pretty little kaida. shes priceless.
i better sign off before i cry all over my keyboard. over and out...to playland, cry.
posted by Kerry @ 7:56 AM
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