colour seem to fade

whoa, when you are drunk your senses are really and truly dulled. it's um about 4 and i am listening to my sad lonley girl songs. and i have had many the double vodka paralyzer. my boyfriend has gone to bed because apparently, just like a child, when you get mad at him he gets mad right back. that is so lame. its been so long since i let loose. and i guess when i let loose i lose all sanity. but you know what? so what. jeezuz. a girl has to do that sometimes. i feel like i am wound so tight sometimes that when i let go, i really let go. well, i should finish this drink and call it a night...on the couch in the den. because right now i hate boys. arrrrrrrr i'm a pirate. tomorrow i will delete this post. booya.