its kinda hot out...eh?

but really. i think this is not cool. i am supposed to be doing homework and packing. how can i do that in this heat? not to mention that i have just finished packing my entire office up. i want a break man.

i am not sure how this happens to me but my daughter is going away for three days and i somehow volunteered to babysit my neice those same three days. i could have had a break. what is wrong with me? seriously. what is wrong?

i have been spending every afternoon at the pool. its very very nice. as long as you find a spot in the shade.

okay, pack it up, pack it in, let me begin...

triple take

remember whistler?


pretend like we haven't been fighting all day. perfect!


less happy than 10 seconds ago.


BURN!!!

photo taking is repulsive.

so yeah, women and affairs

so basically i have no idea. but i think that women have affairs due to lack of emotional connection. now this is kind of crude but some ladies i know were talking about the act of oral sex. and they mostly said they didnt do it for their fella and the reasoning was because they didnt feel that connection on an emotional level and that oral sex was something very intimate. so this is a little off track of the whole affairs thing but women want to be happy, i assume men do to but there has been some breakdown in the process. women want to feel wanted, emotionally and sexually. not like "i want you to give me head" but like "i want to be close to you." the problem is, i dont think this can ever happen. if you think about cheating and you call exboyfriends when your boyfriend/husband etc pisses you off and you go out drinking with the girls...are you going to cheat? will you cheat? maybe, maybe not.

all i know is that men are slow learners. beyond slow. slugs if you will.

i have a headache man. and he's 6 foot 4 inches and wants oral sex. i am going to take two advils and blog you in the morning.

i need just one more weekday

i know i am supposed to be super thrilled that its the weekend but i was sick for two days and that used up important time that i needed for homework and packing. now its friday and lord knows i will end up at the bar drinking martinis after work, then tomorrow the kids will rope me into some day long adventure, and my daughters friend is sleeping over saturday night so i will be busy being annoyed by them, then sunday will come. you know how sundays go...all movies and bbq'ing.

i think i figured out why women have affairs. too bad i am short on time right now. tune in later for the details.

holla.

ps. my friend just made a $250 avon order. what a crazy crazy fool. but im all for it.

i should known betta

so yesterday was all smooth sailing, then i get home with an awful headache and violent stomach pains. i was forced to lay in my bed and moan all night. not cool. i had things to do. and now i have meetings tonight and tomorrow night so they are write-offs.

only 2 sleeps till payday. thank god cuz this ketchup soup is really gross.

something must be wrong

today actually seems manageable. boxes are getting packed. all the right people have all the right information. also i won two tickets to opening night for the Phantom of the Opera...oh happy days. of course its the day after i move but i am choosing to see it as a silver lining. i will get to climb out of the boxes and get all pretty and go for dinner (downtown! oh my) and a show.

is it wrong to read your child's diary and not be worried that she wants to kill you but instead be concerned over the poor sentence structures and awful spelling?

okay i need food and how.

enough is enough

its truly getting to the point where i lose it completely. i have way too much going on and i am so very tired. some summer this is. i am too busy and tired to even to anything and when i do i feel guilty about the more important things i could be doing.

like today, my daughter and her friend have convinced us to take them to playland. this is while i have a freelance proofreading gig due tomorrow, many many assignment long overdue, much boxes to be packed, a house to be cleaned, a bed to be lazed around in. whats a girl to do? but i feel bad if i dont take my child out and entertain her. but why couldnt we have just gone to the local spray park for an hour and i would still have some sort of day left? why cant i say no? every day i realize more and more that seriously, something is wrong with me.

i stayed away from the blogging since my whistler trip b/c friends, you don't even want to know how that went. but in the end, a discussion was had btwn myself and my fella about where is this relationship going? what do you want out of it? what is the future of this relationship? typical of a guy "can't we just enjoy the now of the relationship?" god, men are so clueless. so after some discussion, we agreed that he shall be less of a selfish jerk and i will go on being absolutely wonderful! and that we will move intogether on july 1, 2007 which will be our two year anniversary. so thats something to work towards. a goal and milestone for our relationship. i was going for dec 1, wishful thinking on my part. but all in all, i think one year is good. i am in school till december then i'll have 6 months to unwind and relax. get used to my life without assignments hanging over my head all the time. try to loose some committments, then the summer will come and he will move in and it will be great...i hope. maybe i will hate him. only time will tell.

in other news, only 3 weeks until my brother takes my niece 1 ferry ride and 5 hours away. my heart is breaking. i cant believe how selfish they are. it makes my eyes water up just thinking about it.

look at my pretty little kaida. shes priceless.



i better sign off before i cry all over my keyboard. over and out...to playland, cry.